PrincessAshley91

Hi everyone! As you can see, I've now changed my username! A good friend of mine, @CrystalSeaDragon44, has kindly given me a month of Core membership, thanks to a Diamond Badge on chapter 7 of Finding What Lies Between! This has been a long time coming. I picked my original username as a placeholder, never expecting this account to go anywhere, other than finding neat art. And for a long time, it worked. I didn't really have anything else in mind and Undertaker was a good moniker.

However, two years ago, I came out as transgender. With that, my old username didn't seem to fit anymore. The Undertaker is an old man now. I still love and respect the guy, but I don't wanna be associated with that anymore. Instead, I wanna be seen as a pretty princess! So now, I've become PrincessAshley91! Ashley is my chosen name, and legal name now. I wanna be a princess (as I said), and I was born in 1991. I think this is much more fitting and will last me.

As for the Core membership, I don't know what else to do with it lol. I literally just wanted to change the name, that's it. Maybe I'll figure something out, but probably not. I'll just let it expire after the month is up and go back to my normal account.

Take care,

Princess Ashley

Hi folks. I really, really hate to do this but I need help. I lost my job last month and I'm running out of money. I was hoping to be back at work by now, but it would seem the job market isn't on my side. I was also denied unemployment because of why I was fired. I'm desperate here. I had no other choice but to make a GoFundMe. If you can help out or share it around, I'd greatly appreciate it. Here's the link: https://gofund.me/4f79adba

Thank you in advance!

Yes folks, you read that right. After over a decade of no story posts, I have returned to writing! I can't bring myself to continue my old story, Ash Becomes Ashley. It's very well outdated at this point and it's not something I want to see anymore. So sorry if anyone was hoping for a sequel (seriously, why do you people watch me?). This is a fresh start for me, writing a story that's near and dear to my heart.

Finding What Lies Between is the story of my personal journey into becoming who i am today. However, I've told my actual story so many times, it's become too boring to write about. So instead, I'm writing a fictionalized version of it. It's about a boy who realizes he has a fascination for girls' clothes. Slowly, over time, he'll realize that it goes much further than that!

I'm hoping to have chapter 2 up soon. I do hope you all enjoy this. I know it's probably not what you came here for, but that old story is done. It's not coming back. I want to tell my original story instead now. Still, i hope everyone at least gives the new one a chance!

That's all for now,

Ashley

Hi everyone,

I just reread my last journal and while its only a couple months old, it got outdated pretty quickly. Just a few days after making it, I realized that I'm actually transgender. I do not identify as a male anymore, nor do I fully identify as female. I'm a demigirl. I know that sounds a little odd, but it means that while I feel feminine and would prefer to present female, I don't fully identify as a woman.

This was a hard realization to come to. I cant believe that it took me so long to come to this. I considered that I might be trans in the past, but wrote it off because I didn't think I qualified. Turned out, that was my ignorance showing. Being trans isn't some checklist of things you need, but rather any point where you don't identify with your assigned gender at birth. I realize this now.

I've spent the last 2 and a half months looking inside myself and thinking on how I want to proceed. For one, I've told all my real life friends. Everyone I held all of this back from, now knows the truth. And they all accepted me for who I am. My best friend was extremely supportive right off the bat. I told him while we were both at AAC this year. I sat him down and explained it to him. He understood and said I have the right to be happy with my body. I can't tell you how happy that made me.

Alright, so for a while, I accepted both male and female pronouns. After a while though, that didn't feel right. So now, I only use she/her pronouns. I think that's a lot better for me. I still plan on doing HRT, I've planned it for sometime next September. And hopefully in August, I'll be moving out of my current apartment and into another one with a friend. My brother isn't exactly the most stable person to live with. And I need stability if I'm going to transition. HRT is a second puberty. I'm going to be experiencing a lot of changes, both physical and mental. But I see now, this is the right path for me. The path I should have been taking all along. All I can do now is move forward.

If any of you have any sort of questions or the like, feel free to ask. I'll happily answer anything. This is quite confusing for me as well.

Thanks for reading,

Ashley

Hi everyone, been a while since my last post here. Wanted to give a bit of a life update. First thing's first, as most of you know by now, I'm a crossdresser. I enjoy wearing women's clothing (even if my current living situation doesn't allow for it). What you may not know, is that I've been doing some soul searching lately. And thanks to some wonderful folks on Discord, I've figured out a few things which I'd like to share.

One, i find i prefer the term "femboy" over "crossdresser" because i feel more feminine and its not just for fun/sexual reasons.

Two, i have a preferred name now. While my actual name is Andrew, i prefer the name Ashley as its more gender neutral.

Three, Id eventually like to start HRT (hormone replacement therapy for those of you who don't know). Though it'll be some time before i do, as I'd like to get out of my current apartment before then. It may be a couple years at this point, but I'm only 30, I should have plenty of time.

Fourth and final, I still identify as male for now. My pronouns are still he/him. However, these feelings are subject to change as i learn more about myself.

_________________________ Another thing to note is, my mom recently found out she had cancer. They found it after a hysterectomy and luckily, it should be mostly or all gone by now (we aren't sure which yet). However, she will still need chemotherapy as a precaution. She's holding up as best she can, my dad is supporting her. Money wise, her insurance seems to be covering everything for now. If they do need money, I'll set up a GoFundMe for her. Hopefully she wont need it. Thoughts and prayers are appreciated at least, she needs all the positive vibes she can get.

That's everything for now, thank you for reading,

Ashley